I need to start exercising now
Monday, April 30, 2007 13:43 IST
By Subhash K Jha, Santa Banta News Network
/> Saif has sent off a letter to all his producers. "No more work on Sundays. I'm am a hundred percent recovered now. But strictly forbidden from smoking, And even if I wasn't, I'm smart enough to know smoking is seriously damaging to my health."

Saif dismisses as "absolute rubbish" the rumour that he has started smoking again. "Am I crazy to start after I've quit? See, the first three weeks is really tough for anyone who wants to quit.

Once you get over that phase you're home and free. Luckily for me I was in hospital and under medication for those three weeks. By the time I came out of the hospital the addiction was over."

Saif did suffer the usual withdrawal symptoms, like the trembling of the hands, in hospital. "But it wasn't that bad either. The real ordeal starts now. When I'm in a bar watching friends smoke the urge is bound to hit me. I wouldn't call quitting smoking a sacrifice.

It was a necessity. I've been in hospital and I had a very strong motivation to give up smoking. Either I quit, or I fell ill again. I almost had a heart attack because of my smoking. Other people have probably just heard about how bad smoking is. I know."

He pauses to think deeply about what he has gone through. "Smoking adds to the chances of your falling sick. It's like adding a bottle of whiskey to fast driving. That's what my cardiologist compares smoking to."

At the moment Saif's cardiologist is almost a divine figure in his life. "I wasn't afraid when I fell ill. I've always had a fatalistic attitude to life....never store it up, because you never know what's going to happen tomorrow. I want to enjoy the day. It might be all over tomorrow.

Anything can happen at any time. If you look around you, you're bound to be petrified by what you see and hear. I mean, some kid falls out of the window and I say, 'Thank God mine are safe.' Every day that something awful doesn't happen to me and my family, is a blessing."

Saif does worry about his kids and their future, more now than before. "I do spend more concentrated and focused time with my children after my illness. That was possible because I've been at home. But look, it's a beautiful world. And most people are nice to me.

Unless I'm stupid, or expect too much and and mess it up, there's nothing for me to feel scared about. I want to approach my work and private life with a mixture of confidence and humility. If a relationship doesn't work out, who knows it may work out the next time."

He sighs and takes a deep breath. "Inshan Allah, I'm getting good offers. Now I know whom to work with and whom not to ...Post my illness and the passing away of love, I feel a whole new phase starting . On Saturday I started exercizing again. ...I don't want to work too hard. I never have. I don't want to burn myself out."
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